I have just had Meg at the mall looking for her new glasses. Why oh why is it that all the shop assistants I came into contact with looked like they were 16 years old and new about as much about the product as a work Expericence kid.

I was in the empty glasses shop for 10 good minutes before I was forced to ask for some help. I wanted their advice about shape, style and colour (Meg has red hair and pink glasses don’t look so hot!), but when the assistant took a pair off the shelf and handed them to Megto put on herself, I had no confidence in her ability to advise me at all. When I was a small child being fitted for glasses, the guy always put them on me, checked their appropriateness and had other suggestions. This kid today looked to me for guidance and to tell you the truth I really didn’t want to buy them there because as the “experts” I sure didn’t geel like I was getting any expertise.

Anyway, we ended up with the Barbie frames, Meggie loves them to bits, and we can pick them up in a week 🙂

I read Moi’s blog entry commenting that if you write controversial topics you will have lots of hits. I certainly feel the pressure to be funny and witty and knowledgeable and topical, and yet that is not why I even started this blog. It was supposed to be about me and my life, a way I could openly express myself and keep my friends and family abreast of what we are doing. Scrapbooking is my hobby and not the be all and end all of my life, so it is not something I want to write about all the time. I rarely visit the forums and websites but that is obviously where all the action is happening!

I thought about this a lot last night, wondering how I could get away from the feelings of inadequacy because I don’t get 10 comments on each entry, don’t get tagged for every thing going around or know lots of blogging people or don’t have particularly much that is rivetting to write about. It is difficult to keep writing for an audience – if I wanted to do that I would have been a journalist, something I am clearly not very good at! I don’t want to feel this way anymore, so it is back to basics for me. Back to my family, back to enjoying my hobby and doing it the way I want (without feeling that I have to make masterpeices out of each LO, or use the latest embellishments and paper) and back to making the most of my friendships and family time. I guess that is like a bunch a New Year Intentions. To find the confidence to be happy within myself and not worry about what I think others might be thinking! I do that all the time – change my behaviour because of what I am percieveing others want me to be. In all probability they are not thinking anything about me at all!! Bad habbit that I really want to break 🙂

So 11 days into this new year I am finding new personal strength. I’m going to make things happen this year that I spent last year dreaming about, and I am going to do it with my head held high.